So recently, I started making time instead of making excuses and have been heading to the gym. I’ve been seeing someone to help me with my goals. I thought I was going for help with my biggest hurdle: weight loss, but It’s definitely about addressing how much you bullshit yourself instead. That’s the root of most of my roadblocks.  So to my surprise, I am finding myself not taking my own BS and it’s been pretty dang great. Anyway, in the process I think I found the best workout app ever. It’s called FitBod and the reason I really love it is its muscle fatigue feature. You get a set of exercises per workout that takes your muscle fatigue into account. I’ve been able to log 500+ calorie hour-long workouts but not be completely busted a day later. I never found the absolute soreness that came after hard workouts to be helpful in keeping the habit up.  The other feature I really like is that the generated workout plan also has the option to replace a recommended exercise with another. This has been super useful because my gym is well populated and sometimes the bench isn’t available or the squat racks are all taken up. I can swipe left on an exercise and it will give me a few more options that exercise the same muscle group – often without a machine or free weight requirement. Indispensable!

Changing my perspective has been good for me in multiple ways. The change in mood, ability to perform/execute, and overall satisfaction with my day to day life is really improved.  I think the best part of the last 12 months was removing sources of negativity ( self centered user/abuser type people, overwhelming information sources, too much social media) in my life, refocusing on expending effort into my life goals, and making the effort to reach out and include positive influences and loving people more.

Hope you all are having good years too!

We are all moved back in and I am in love with my new floors.  That is the most adult thing I’ve probably ever said.  Things change -  I thought I’d never care about this kind of stuff but now that I have a house that’s mine I have this energy to give to it.  I will post some before/after photos soon – after I take all the afters and get them off my camera.  Also, guys, its spring. I’ve been waiting so long for it – and now it’s finally here. I can’t explain the sense of well being and peace I get from standing outside and absorbing the sun in temperate weather. The green plants, flowers, birds, everything resonates within me.  Our trip to Japan is less than a month away ( whaaaa! ) and then it looks like I’ll be flying up to NYC for a few days again. Lots of travel in the books for me this season – which, tbh, I have no complaints about. Hoping for some time to post it all here!

I realized a few weeks ago that I have been busy for so long that I actually don’t know what to do with myself when I have some time to myself.  22 year old me is screaming inside – because she loved having nothing to do.  33 year old me is just living another day in the life. Now, for me, busy doesn’t mean working all the time – but it does mean doing all the time.  Doing the things that help me complete all my work for my job on time.  Making it to everything on my fairly packed social calendar. Learning something now and again so I don’t become that entitled career person that wants success without investing time into staying current.  Prioritizing my marriage ( kinda easy because who doesn’t want to hang out with Jeremy? ). Managing all the things we are doing to our home… including moving out of it for 10 days this month so we can both refinish and install hardwood floors everywhere.  Taking time to learn Japanese letters, words, and phrases so I can enjoy our upcoming trip to Japan more! There’s not a good deal of time in here for things like sleep.

Anyway, there wasn’t any real point. Life is good. I’m just really tired.